I suppose a second opinion couldn't hurt. Copy/pasted: I got caught doing drugs, among other things, last year. I've never felt so low and pathetic in my life. So I stopped talking to friends, because my dad is always worried about me doing drugs. I can't do anything, except see my girlfriend. Me and her we want to start a life together. But society thinks that all we want is sex, I suppose. (We haven't yet) So, my life went from awesome to me sitting home, playing a damn game collecting virtual loot that won't mean anything in a year from now. And that's another thing! Society.. Most people say recreational marijuana is good and bad, obviously. It has pros and cons. There is no definite who is right, who is wrong. Same with a lot of things. Who IS right? Was I wrong for experimenting? Who knows.. I wasn't out to hurt anyone. Just take care of an old curiosity I had. Was I right to get punished as badly as I did? Maybe. It's somewhere in the middle. Same can be said of religion, gay marriage, anything. Right now, my life consists of going into Highschool as a junior, looking at all the naive and ignorant people, acting like morons, feeling no place in society. Always feeling so useless. I'm a disappointment to most people I know, and much of society. My grades are shit, caught with drugs, anti-social now, and I log 8 hours minimum a day on Xbox, unless I go to see my girlfriend, the main reason I have a little bit of sanity left in me. Where's the good in me? Seemingly, there is none. My girlfriends mom is the worst of it all. Majority of her family. They always talk shit about me. It's not fair. Telling her to find someone else. Telling her she doesn't think we'll last. Telling her we're not good for each other. I'm just the 'boyfriend'. As if All I wanted was sex. I want more, but of course, with my age, most people just let their dicks do their thinking. We both want a life together. No one thinks we will. Is it really so stupid to want this? In 1 1/2 years to be together, and start something together? If I'm not 'ready' to make this decision, why am I ready to make the decision of the career I'll have until my dying day? I know what she's like. What a job is like? No clue. As if we're always together, holding hands, talking about our problems, as a joke. 'For the lolz', me and her tell each other, as a joke that really kills both of us. Xbox helps distract me from bullshit I have to deal with. Distracts me from having no purpose yet. Distracts me from the thought of being a disappointment. So that is another large prt of my life. I've tried to find a job, and no luck. Maybe at 18. So I go in with my dad for $13.75 an hour until then. TLDR: I have disappointed people, I have no place in society yet (for a few years), 8 hours gaming a day, I'm in a relationship where we want something but everyone thinks that we only want sex. And I've never been so unhappy with my life. My life: Sleep: 25% School: 20% Gaming: 30% GF: 25% Hard to get more accuracy than that. EDIT/UPDATE: Drove GF 70 miles because her Mom can't plan anything. No 'thank you' was spoken (except from GF) Yesterday drove her around for her too. Us guys can never catch a break xD Over time, things will get better, I think.