To be completely honest, your original post makes it sound as if you are on the verge of some existential crisis, simply because the game is not as fun or immersive as you thought it should be. Very rarely do you see such heartfelt and philosophical postings regarding purpose and meaning over something as trivial as a video game. I am glad to hear that you are well adjusted, well balanced and successful. Your embellishments on the issue of the video game "Destiny" and the upswell of importance you put on its ability to convey purpose was very confusing to me outside of the context of just getting your point across.