I can imagine. I really want Hawkmoon, too. I know the Thorn bounty is a pain. Especially if you aren't a regular at the crucible. I was stuck on Xyor for about 2 weeks. Longest two weeks of my life. Stuck. I could not kill Xyor by myself. So I tried with some friends, no problem right?.. A group of a few newly acquired friend help my out. We get all the way to the end, Xyor's in the room, chaos all around. Wizards flying in the air shooting and screaming, Knights hacking at our feet. And I had every chance to kill Xyor and miss.. She gets caught up in the fray. I lose her. One guardian down, the next trying to save him.. I panic and attack to try and finish her off.. get surrounded and can't find cover.. I died like a jerk. I got greedy.. Thorn.. I choked. Flat out. The other players where hitting and shooting me after the respawn knowing I got greedy. I felt horrible. I wanted Thorn so bad. It was so close. But now know I have at least one more gut wrenching battle ahead of me. It stung.. I'm a adult.. I was pissed. All that to tell you I know how you feel.. But I didn't give up. As a matter of fact, you can look in my inventory and you will find a fully upgrade Thorn. My personal weapon. I may use other weapons, but Thorn is what I bring into battle. My trophy piece, my Excalibur. I earned that weapon through some very hard gameplay and perseverance. You will do the same. Go out and be aggressive. Use that frustration to your advantage. Find a void shotgun or Fusion rifle. Play control (everyone comes running right at you) and you'll get the points in no time. The exotic bounty are made to push players out of their comfort zones to claim their prize.. It worked, I'm far better at the crucible because of that bounty. I failed like you did. But I adapted and so will you. I don't care what anyone says. Thorn's worth it. Get it to 300, you'll see why. Good luck, buddy. Delta