[i]I'm not as worried: Despite the growing possibility of actual education being impossible in an existing system, I have realized hope in the midst of despair. As you might expect from ineffective societies and ineffective creatures within them, I must take even more responsibility as an individual for my education. The way to do it, then, must be self managed to a great extent. In order for this to be achieved in a meaningful way, there would have to be a great sum of money. Therefore, my goals can be realized with a premature and massive influx of money. Then the issue becomes the time frame in which I have to acquire money and how it is done most effectively through whatever means necessary. My preferable method of acquiring money is through writing, but I will resort to other methods (even illegal ones) if need be and they present little consequence. The time frame should be decided by a few factors: Learning capacity, lifespan, and motivation potential. Lifespan can't be reasonably calculated unless you know genetic factors in tandem with lifestyle contributions. To do even this I require money. Money should start generation as soon as possible. Through writing this would would be possible in a few years at the least. Music may comprise a good niche for me to establish money as I may work my own hours and preparation is as much as I deem fit. It would additionally integrate music into my life and bring something creative other than writing. Music is a short term lucrative investment. Writing is a long term lucrative investment. The other issue is how much money I need to live independently of this system and foster my own educational experiences in the manner I deem appropriate. Five million dollars is needed to generate interest to live comfortably, yet the threshold must be higher if I wish to remain traveling. Perhaps twice this amount (10,000,000) would work. Working at 50 dollars per hour constantly without sleep would take 22.8 years. With more realistic numbers, at least 50 years with a good job. This is unsatisfactory, as the majority of my life shall be over. I don't desire to stay within this trivial, insipid, moronic educational system, nor be forced to comply with other systemized forms of human idiocy. I need to fall into money early and use it to begin my process of legitimate learning. What comes to mind is Marijuana growing. With the plant being legal in Colorado, I could in theory associate myself with croppers and make a killing early on, as the growth rates and sale profits can be astronomically lucrative in a matter of short years. If other ways can't be found to achieve money legitimately in this system, I'll just have to do a bit of side stepping and watch my back. This is what the world in its current state may force me to do. How could I not hate humanity from time to time because of its disappointing nature, especially when all it serves to do is inhibit me or force me into deviancy just to attain my life purpose. It's repulsive. Even though what I desire is very difficult to attain, it's infinitely more comforting than trying to find a system that most likely doesn't exist. This is why I'm not as worried. There is possibility, despite the tenuous nature of it. It seems as if I'll always walk along a knife's edge. [/i] ...