This is my note.
That's what people do, isn't it?
A written resignation?
I guess it would be difficult for me to leave without explanation, so here it is.
It's been so long since I was certain anybody loved me.
I had been waiting for a gun to fall into my lap, so I could be nice and efficient.
Quick and painless, right to the end.
This is a subject I have never discussed with anyone, no matter how many shrinks I've had, I've never let them know how close to the edge I was.
I hope nobody will think less of me for my early retirement, but I honestly don't feel like getting up and going to work tomorrow, or ever again.
Often enough, I wake up in the morning and think to myself, "I don't wanna get up today, there's nothing I want to do." Then I think about it more, "Or tomorrow, or the next day, or ever. I wish I could go into a coma for the rest of my life."
Well, I've got the next best thing.
Sorry, but this is really hard to write.
I've got over two decades of work history with this company, and I'm putting that all behind me.
They don't have the internet in the home I'm moving to, or at least, if they do, it's a local area network.
That just leaves the question, how should I retire?
I was thinking about just tightening the belt and confronting the boss man, but there's always the idea that I could just pop a bunch of pills and clock out for the last time. I wouldn't know which pills to take though.
Well, I'l figure that out on my own.
You might see me, if I decide my retirement account isn't quite full enough at the last second.
There are a lot of you out there who meant a lot to me, and I'm not naming any names, but you know who you are, and I was glad to call myself your friend.
Well, I've done everything I can do.
Why wait?
EDIT: Didn't work, going to try again now.
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The -blam!- are you on about?