I don't want to seem like an annoying blogger here, but I figured some nice discussion can come of it.
Be Warned: It's long.
[spoiler]I wasn't having a very nice day, so I figured I'd go outside and play basketball with my brother. It started out just fine, and it stayed that way until he began to get angry over some calling and whatnot. I let him get away with it, but I thought it was a bit annoying, as well as a bit funny, that he was acting that way.
Eventually it escalated to him taunting and insulting me, as well as a couple of friends of mine (they weren't there, but I was annoyed anyway). I just laughed it off for a while, and returned it jokingly for a bit. It started getting worse when he pushed me into the basketball hoop as I was going for a lay up. I just took it for a little while, but I snapped when he threw the basketball at my face.
I looked up and saw him smirk, but when he realized I was mad, he looked afraid. He said it was just an accident, but I didn't buy it. It made me even more mad to see that after he provoked me, he acted like a defenseless coward. I ran up to him and punched him in his face, threw him on the ground, and kicked him in his stomach. I told him forcefully that if he ever hit me again, I'd hit him way harder.
After a minute or two though, I felt like a jerk. Even though I didn't hit him too hard, I felt pretty bad about it. It wasn't a very fair fight either; I'm a bit taller than him, and although we're close in our weights, I regularly practice boxing. He's about a year and a half younger than me.
I said I was sorry that I hit him and that I shouldn't have lost my cool. He had tears in his eyes too, so that made me feel a bit worse. I was worried I'd hurt him bad, so I looked up concussion symptoms and tried my best to check him. He appeared to be okay, but complained of a little pain. At worst I figured I gave him a very mild concussion.
This isn't the first time he's acted like this though, I remember when he and I got in an argument just three weeks back and he pushed me into a corner and hit me a few times. I also recall he got angry at me after I teased him about girls, and he threw a book at me and punched me in my face once, and my torso twice.
I never hit him those times, I told him to calm down, but today I just snapped. I'm ashamed that I lost my cool, I thought I was better than that.
Anyway, I said sorry and I apologized, and I think I've made up with him. I gave him some water so he'd feel better, and I think he is. [/spoiler]
I still feel ashamed, and am worried that I'm psychopathic, have anger issues, and can snap at any time.
Anyway, tell me about a time you lost your cool.
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you took a lot of crap from him, you shouldnt feel too bad.