Ehhh controversial opinion, it's probably okay if you want to chill, have a few beers like I do and throw on some Eminem on my headphones and get a few kills and get some rank up packages. I've learned that even a few kills, die a lot big deal. I learned the hard way when I got my account permanently banned for hate mail, lost my playstation account years ago but got everything back on a new account and now I don't send any hate mail. PVP is fine just be a casual. Just avoid things like comp and trials. Never know you might get lucky and have a guardian in your team that's a beast that will straight up carry you. Just relax, get a few kills and lose a few games you'll get it done eventually.