Hello, the 3 people interested in what I have to say. (I am not sure that they are not past and future me.) Welcome to the next Panzer Post. Yeah, this time it has a title! Wack, right?
Anyways, as my wonderfully concise title states, I will ramble on about School, Antidepressants (and the whirlwind that is withdrawal), and games like Rainbow 6, War Thunder, and my first "bad but I won't stop playing" game, Trove. I may also, due to my funny-looking pear-shaped brain, randomly tangent into random things. Honestly, I would love it if people cared enough to read all of the things I have to say (if I didn't want people to read it, I wouldn't post it), but I know most of the people on this forum have better things to do, so feel free to skip to my questions. Unless, of course, you don't even want to answer those. That'd be fine, I guess. It doesn't hurt at all.
School. A student's main social outlet, stressor, and oppressor. The place where adults have a field day looking down on kids, and then get confused when the same kids reciprocate the respect they give us. (I am not coping, I am not coping). Most of you here are fortunate enough to be the few kids who become adults and cycle out of an oppressive teaching environment into a possible (but maybe, just maybe, not) oppressive work environment. "What do I know about work environments?" I hear you thinking. Nothing at all. I simply am parroting the nihilistic -blam!- I hear your (whoever you are) age group spout online. Is it correct? I don't know, I am an idiotic, impressionable kid.
Moving on, so I don't dwell on my many ramblings and ravings against School (mainly the American, but it seems most cultures have many, many things wrong with theirs,) I'll briefly touch on the madness of forgetting to take my name-brand happy pills and suddenly being pissed at anything possible and 100% ready to commit crimes (in Minecraft) with a sword strapped to my hip, the same I am shaking at my younger siblings as I type this.
As we neared the god-forsaken first day of school (to which I wore a 2-piece suit), I would often stay up later than I should've, drawing or mindlessly watching video essay #45 about some obscure philosopher. When I finally dragged myself from my screen, I would often forget to take my night-time meds, which include the titular name-brand happy pills. This led to the day before school being misery-filled and soon fury-fueled. In anger, I swung my sword about at the punch bag that my father has continually forgotten to put up. The whole point of a punching bag is that I stop punching my siblings, but they seem to think that I have gained enough self-control to not fight my siblings anymore. (I have, but it is continually wearing thinner.) Remember to take your meds. If they aren't helping, try telling your doctor, your parent, or whoever you need. Seriously guys, talking helps (helps me, at least, and it may help you, Reader 7.)
Also, Rainbow 6 Siege, while produced by an annoying and uncaring company, is randomly still fun. Not alone, of course. Grab some friends, and try it, if you play/played in the past. The game's state annoys the piss out of me, but hey, the memes and fun -blam!- is still fun.
Eh, I was gonna talk about War Thunder and Trove, but they are in a similar boat. Trove is still a rather satisfying game to play and loot, War Thunder is great for some solid tank/plane gameplay.
Alright, alright, I'm done. I'm done! I'll stop assaulting your ears- eyes...? with my rambling.
Mandated questionnaire portions:
1. If you are unlucky enough to be young(er) and still in school, who is (or was, I don't discriminate based on age unless I am doing a little trollin- Sorry, I'll stop) your least favorite teacher/peer. Feel free to whale on them all you want, insults are funny.
2. Do you have a game that you know isn't really that good, but you play anyways? Is it just me?
3. Did you actually read any of my ramblings? (Saying no only hurts my feelings a [i]little[/i] bit, don't worry/)
4. Uh, a favorite song, go!
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1. I am no longer in school BUT I will be re-enrolling in college again next year! I graduated high school in 2012. I would consider myself one of the "in-betweeners" maybe? Idk, maybe their is a different term? I played baseball and football my whole life until I destroyed my knee my freshman year but a lot of my friends were "popular" athletes. But I was also in marching band and that's where most of my life-long friends were made. I didn't have straight A's, but also never got below a C and also never studied for anything. My favorite teacher was Mr. Bozeman. He is (and was 10 years ago) an old geezer that taught history. There was always a joke-but-probably-true-rumor that he went to Woodstock, he knew a lot about seemingly everything, spoke with a deep and calming ASMR-esque voice, and coached me in baseball for at least 5 or 6 of my little league years. As long as I had an A in his class, he seemingly allowed me to sleep in class. After a while, when someone had been sleeping for whatever he calculated as an "acceptable amount of time", he would stop talking about whatever he was talking about and would ask us a question to get our attention. He would say "Dallas, what did you eat for dinner with your family last night?" or "Do you wake yourself up in the mornings or do your parents? Why is that? Do they go to work before you wake up for school?" Basically, he would ask random, seemingly innocent questions to gain a better perspective of his student's home lives. He never raised his voice once, never showed impatience or anger, and I often heard stories of him forgiving missing assignments and curving test scores because of struggles in peoples home lives, often offering extra time or his famous "papers" that he would offer us to complete. He knew I was a huge Denver Broncos fan so when I completely forgot to bring in a homework assignment, he told me to write a one page paper about the current state of the Broncos and what I would do to improve them as a team. Again, these papers would be based on his understanding of us and always trying to be personable with us. 2. I still play NCAA 14, although it's not "bad" by any means, it can be considered very bad by today's standards. They are finally rebooting NCAA football next year though! I also play a lot of Tarkov, which has been in Beta for like 6 years or something? You can throw Smite in there too, not necessarily a bad game but definitely a toxic community. 3. There is a chance I may have. 4. My favorite song changes so much. I'll admit, I have a very mainstream taste in music, but I listen to pretty much anything. For the longest time my favorite artists were Drake (Take Care era) and Luke Bryan. Then I had my Wiz/Mac Miller phase. I still listen to all of them, but with a healthy dose of Metal/Screamo/Alt stuff. People often ask me why I listen to such depressing music. Now, if you happened to read my response and have to urge to respond, my question to you is this: What about school makes it so oppressive?