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8/10/2022 7:05:11 PM
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School, Antidepressants, and why I still play -blam!- games: A Panzer Post
Hello, the 3 people interested in what I have to say. (I am not sure that they are not past and future me.) Welcome to the next Panzer Post. Yeah, this time it has a title! Wack, right?
Anyways, as my wonderfully concise title states, I will ramble on about School, Antidepressants (and the whirlwind that is withdrawal), and games like Rainbow 6, War Thunder, and my first "bad but I won't stop playing" game, Trove. I may also, due to my funny-looking pear-shaped brain, randomly tangent into random things. Honestly, I would love it if people cared enough to read all of the things I have to say (if I didn't want people to read it, I wouldn't post it), but I know most of the people on this forum have better things to do, so feel free to skip to my questions. Unless, of course, you don't even want to answer those. That'd be fine, I guess. It doesn't hurt at all.
School. A student's main social outlet, stressor, and oppressor. The place where adults have a field day looking down on kids, and then get confused when the same kids reciprocate the respect they give us. (I am not coping, I am not coping). Most of you here are fortunate enough to be the few kids who become adults and cycle out of an oppressive teaching environment into a possible (but maybe, just maybe, not) oppressive work environment. "What do I know about work environments?" I hear you thinking. Nothing at all. I simply am parroting the nihilistic -blam!- I hear your (whoever you are) age group spout online. Is it correct? I don't know, I am an idiotic, impressionable kid.
Moving on, so I don't dwell on my many ramblings and ravings against School (mainly the American, but it seems most cultures have many, many things wrong with theirs,) I'll briefly touch on the madness of forgetting to take my name-brand happy pills and suddenly being pissed at anything possible and 100% ready to commit crimes (in Minecraft) with a sword strapped to my hip, the same I am shaking at my younger siblings as I type this.
As we neared the god-forsaken first day of school (to which I wore a 2-piece suit), I would often stay up later than I should've, drawing or mindlessly watching video essay #45 about some obscure philosopher. When I finally dragged myself from my screen, I would often forget to take my night-time meds, which include the titular name-brand happy pills. This led to the day before school being misery-filled and soon fury-fueled. In anger, I swung my sword about at the punch bag that my father has continually forgotten to put up. The whole point of a punching bag is that I stop punching my siblings, but they seem to think that I have gained enough self-control to not fight my siblings anymore. (I have, but it is continually wearing thinner.) Remember to take your meds. If they aren't helping, try telling your doctor, your parent, or whoever you need. Seriously guys, talking helps (helps me, at least, and it may help you, Reader 7.)
Also, Rainbow 6 Siege, while produced by an annoying and uncaring company, is randomly still fun. Not alone, of course. Grab some friends, and try it, if you play/played in the past. The game's state annoys the piss out of me, but hey, the memes and fun -blam!- is still fun.
Eh, I was gonna talk about War Thunder and Trove, but they are in a similar boat. Trove is still a rather satisfying game to play and loot, War Thunder is great for some solid tank/plane gameplay.
Alright, alright, I'm done. I'm done! I'll stop assaulting your ears- eyes...? with my rambling.
Mandated questionnaire portions:
1. If you are unlucky enough to be young(er) and still in school, who is (or was, I don't discriminate based on age unless I am doing a little trollin- Sorry, I'll stop) your least favorite teacher/peer. Feel free to whale on them all you want, insults are funny.
2. Do you have a game that you know isn't really that good, but you play anyways? Is it just me?
3. Did you actually read any of my ramblings? (Saying no only hurts my feelings a [i]little[/i] bit, don't worry/)
4. Uh, a favorite song, go!
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1 ReplyI too am on the happy pills. They recently doubled my dose, so we’ll see how that goes.
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Edited by OdinsKnight101: 8/15/2022 5:12:17 AM1. Don't remember much about School. 2. Well D2 I know still has quite a few problems and one that stops me from recommending it for anyone.The general direction of the game is finally going to where I want it too and it is glorious. Friday we learn even more about it and the week after next weeks tuesday will be the start of a new season and all sub classes finally free of D2 Y1 style. 3. I did read everything. I wish there was a button or something that told you or anyone else I read everything.. 4. 1000 Words Yuna X-2.
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Edited by The First Aifos: 8/15/2022 12:35:12 AMI’m a bit sad Trove is such a not-good game, because iirc the actual classes were made pretty well. It was just dragged down by no actual content to use those good classes in. I don’t regret my playtime with it; I had fun enough. But I also don’t regret putting it down and never picking it back up, ‘cause those dungeons got stale. 1. I talked about this on Cap’n’s awkward high school stories. I don’t feel like typing it again. 2. Not really. Many games are built just to be addictive, but as someone who studies game design it’s really easy to see when it’s going on, and stop before you get hooked. 3. If I comment on a post, I’ve read the whole thing, with the exception of asking for bumps for later. 4. Let it Go - Frozen. Lately however I’ve been really into [url=https://youtu.be/gkE5KQsK56k]Morning Sky[/url]. Though, I’ve actually been listening to the remastered version, which sounds a bit better, but alas I couldn’t find a good video.
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Edited by R: 8/11/2022 11:08:35 PM1. Any mean or rude people 2. Fortnite but I like it 3. All of the ramblings have been read 4. Don’t blame me by Taylor swift 5. Have a great day 😊
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Drugs are bad
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1 Reply1. I am no longer in school BUT I will be re-enrolling in college again next year! I graduated high school in 2012. I would consider myself one of the "in-betweeners" maybe? Idk, maybe their is a different term? I played baseball and football my whole life until I destroyed my knee my freshman year but a lot of my friends were "popular" athletes. But I was also in marching band and that's where most of my life-long friends were made. I didn't have straight A's, but also never got below a C and also never studied for anything. My favorite teacher was Mr. Bozeman. He is (and was 10 years ago) an old geezer that taught history. There was always a joke-but-probably-true-rumor that he went to Woodstock, he knew a lot about seemingly everything, spoke with a deep and calming ASMR-esque voice, and coached me in baseball for at least 5 or 6 of my little league years. As long as I had an A in his class, he seemingly allowed me to sleep in class. After a while, when someone had been sleeping for whatever he calculated as an "acceptable amount of time", he would stop talking about whatever he was talking about and would ask us a question to get our attention. He would say "Dallas, what did you eat for dinner with your family last night?" or "Do you wake yourself up in the mornings or do your parents? Why is that? Do they go to work before you wake up for school?" Basically, he would ask random, seemingly innocent questions to gain a better perspective of his student's home lives. He never raised his voice once, never showed impatience or anger, and I often heard stories of him forgiving missing assignments and curving test scores because of struggles in peoples home lives, often offering extra time or his famous "papers" that he would offer us to complete. He knew I was a huge Denver Broncos fan so when I completely forgot to bring in a homework assignment, he told me to write a one page paper about the current state of the Broncos and what I would do to improve them as a team. Again, these papers would be based on his understanding of us and always trying to be personable with us. 2. I still play NCAA 14, although it's not "bad" by any means, it can be considered very bad by today's standards. They are finally rebooting NCAA football next year though! I also play a lot of Tarkov, which has been in Beta for like 6 years or something? You can throw Smite in there too, not necessarily a bad game but definitely a toxic community. 3. There is a chance I may have. 4. My favorite song changes so much. I'll admit, I have a very mainstream taste in music, but I listen to pretty much anything. For the longest time my favorite artists were Drake (Take Care era) and Luke Bryan. Then I had my Wiz/Mac Miller phase. I still listen to all of them, but with a healthy dose of Metal/Screamo/Alt stuff. People often ask me why I listen to such depressing music. Now, if you happened to read my response and have to urge to respond, my question to you is this: What about school makes it so oppressive?
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1 Reply1. Do not want 2. Yes 3. Yes 4. Party in the CIA - “Weird” Al Yankovic
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1. My brother was very bad to me growing up 2. I actually like fortnite and don’t think it’s a bad game. Especially since zero build dropped 3. Periodically 4. Yoake. Mei Semones. 5. I treat my mental issues with making myself go and do things. It helps
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You seem to ramble a bit more than I do...I think ;P 1. I graduated some time ago, must I really answer this? lol. I'd have to say probably my html/java teacher in 11th grade.. I forget her name and the actual name of the class heh. I just remember her making me spit out skittles I was eating and throw away the rest of the bag. Quite embarassed me and made me mad, so I ended up drawing this for the rest of the class: [url]https://i.imgur.com/JhlJZMg.jpg[/url] Water spilled on it at some point over the years sadly, which is why the ink is blurred :/ 2. There's so many games that no doubt there's more than a handful that I didn't think was good, but still played. Trying to think of one offhand... . . I can't for the life of me name anything, lordy. . OH . Wall Street Kid for the NES. I still don't know to this day [b]why[/b] I played that game..more than once even. I don't think I was able to beat it though heh. 3. I started to but my focus drifted, and then the Nightfall queue I was in popped, so not fully sorry :/ 4. [i]Frozen expression as thinking commences[/i] I can name favorite bands before a specific ...oh! Iced Earth - Dante's Inferno. Took me quite a while to learn it on guitar. And I was a bit, what's the word, wowed/stunned/shocked?, when I found out that the rhythm guitarist, whom I consider the one who's style helped me shape my style of playing, was part of the group /mob that stormed the capital earlier this year.
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1 ReplyImagine the wonders school choice will do for children
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6 Replies1.) We had a classic Disney Channel villain in our grade. There was no redemption arc by the way. It was this rich, popular kid. She was [b][i]terrible.[/i][/b] She emotionally abused and bullied a ton of kids in my grade including myself. I was really insecure at the time so it hurt a lot. Saw her a few years after she left. She hasn't changed. 2.) Human Fall Flat gets old for some people, but it's beautiful to me. I also play the EA Battlefront 2, which is EA. ('nuf said) 3.) Yes. You whacked a punching bag with a sword because you forgot to take your name brand happy pills. You also like Trove. You think it is satisfying even though it's crap. 4.) Southern Accents by Tom Petty, Wind Up by Jethro Tull, or Time by Pink Floyd. Can't decide.
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1. I always hated the math teacher, for the life of me I struggled with algebra 2 and trigonometry, I would find the answer eventually but it was usually by somehow still doing the math wrong. 2. The archaic pc rpg game known as Fate. 3. Yes, I read them... 4. Fine, but its a bit old: [url=https://youtu.be/Wvxo6BrnSLs] Monster[/url]
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[quote] Mandated questionnaire portions: 1. If you are unlucky enough to be young(er) and still in school, who is (or was, I don't discriminate based on age unless I am doing a little trollin- Sorry, I'll stop) your least favorite teacher/peer. Feel free to whale on them all you want, insults are funny. 2. Do you have a game that you know isn't really that good, but you play anyways? Is it just me? 3. Did you actually read any of my ramblings? (Saying no only hurts my feelings a [i]little[/i] bit, don't worry/) 4. Uh, a favorite song, go![/quote] 1. Looks like a real life stumble guy character 2. F1 22, has so many bugs, cross play is still being fixed, handling is worse then it should be but I still love it 3. Of course I did, listening to what someone has to say even in text form is hardwired in my brain from my nice parent. Hope you can eventually find school more enjoyable, it’s not the best but going to it everyday sucks, and it will only suck worse without finding some sort of way to enjoy it 4. The Improv by DJ Quads
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Least favorite was a graphic design teacher who tried to fail me senior year for not "going by the book". "The product is great but what steps did you take because we didn't go into depth about some of the tools you might have used." Ok cool, I did use both photoshop and illustrator because nobody said we couldn't. So I explain a bunch of the shortcuts and things I had picked up over the course of the year so far. She goes "None of that stuff is in the book, I have to fail you." Logged out, grabbed my pack and went straight to guidance. Passed on that assignment. Played flash games for a bunch of time after that. I had done a bunch of stuff up to that point so there were things I could hand in unless the assignment was fairly specific. If I could go back in time, I would pirate CS from the school and commandeer a textbook instead of taking the class. We could have run that at home. Yeah man, late nights and early mornings can kinda take a toll. 🤔 There's a remix I somehow added to a bunch of playlist recently. Prodigy mix https://youtu.be/4bfrTHAlkz0 Noisia remix even though I do not usually enjoy dubstep. https://youtu.be/r5OgQCvqbYA The game thing... I'm going to say Gran Turismo after GT5.
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1. Philosophy teacher who made an example of me in a lesson on learning disabilities (I have ADHD and dyslexia) in front of the whole class. That is sensitive information that my parents gave to the school in confidence and she shared it with all of my peers without my permission. Looking back on it now, I probably should have reported her to the headteacher. 2. I play old school RuneScape. Sue me! It’s a fun game! 3. No. Sorry. 4. Telegraph road by dire straits. 14 and a half minutes of brilliance. I understand that it may not be everyone’s cup of tea, but “love over gold” was the first album my father ever made me listen to both sides, start to finish.
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Edited by Corvo-9: 8/11/2022 5:31:29 PM1. In 2nd grade one of my teachers gave me close to 20 pages of homework every night. Sometimes even more. I had to move to another class. 2. Destiny 2 3. Of course! I tend to struggle with my depression a lot. Mostly [redacted] on the regular for me. 4. Til It’s Over, Old Dominion
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1. Last year, there was this football coach. (he was bald so he always wore a cap lol) He had a temper and always pushed us farther than we would need, and got mad when we couldn't do whatever he wanted us to. The other coaches were chill, he was just an outlier. 2. AMOGUS (It's not as bad as some think, if you can find a good crew it's actually really fun. But, of course it's mostly just guys looking for online girlfriends these days.) 3. Yeah. I don't have any experience with depression or taking meds, but I'm sure it's awful. 4. I'd say something but I'd change my mind within the next few days... But if you insist, Long Live by Florida Georgia Line.
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1. My biology teacher was by far the worst. It was the same thing every day. Start off the class with notes, followed by a worksheet. 2. Yes. 3. Also yes. 4. All Nightmare Long - Metallica (Death Magnetic, 2008)
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5 Replies1. My PE teacher in gradeschool. She looked and sounded like that evil principle from the movie Matilda. She confiscated my Tarot cards and "lost them" (threw them away or burned them). My face was also a magnet for wild projectile objects in PE. One time a soccer ball slammed into my face and gave me my fourth bloody nose of the year and I shouted "god dammit!" The PE teacher rushed over and leaned down then said "It's not god's fault" to which I responded by spitting blood in her face and marching to the office. 2. Fallout 76 is terrible. I love it. Mass Effect Andromeda is shunned. I love it. Overwatch? Trash. I love it. No, it is never just you. 3. I do read your posts. I gave up on anti depressants because they usually just make things worse for me. Last time I was pissed off all the time. Results may vary, talk to people and all that jazz, as you said. Depression sucks and all we can do is keep fighting the fecker every way we can. 4. At the moment? [url=https://youtu.be/Wpl28kp5WVA]Rotoscope by Spiritbox[/url]
