I met a girl August 11th 2020, everyday since then we’ve talked and talked.
She would say that I quickly became her favorite, one of.. if not her best.
She would tell me that she loved me, loved texting. She would initiate a lot of the conversations.
I didn’t realize how much I need her in my life, She helped me relax, she understood everything. (I barely talked about my issues) but I always, always.. listened to hers because I loved to
She [i]was[/i] my happiness, I’m lost and I dont know what to do anymore.
I was her reason for her recovering from depression.
There’s a lot more that I don’t want to go into, a lot that would prove our relationship and would show how deep our roots were for each other but that be way too long.
She called me on NewYears thanking me for picking up and how alone she felt because even her best friend didn’t pick up. I was always there no matter what time of day/night. I stayed up until morning making sure that she was okay.
Getting lost in her personality, her kindness, her eyes, lips, design and everything else that made her who she was.
She would say how a lot of things made her think of me, she’s on my mind 24/7. Everything reminds me of her.
That’s all gone now, just as unexpected as a shooting star. I don’t know if I can go on knowing how good life was and how much I’ll miss it
[spoiler]im sorry for posting this on here but I need some form of communication. It’s come to the point where it’s starting to effect my life and my health. I’m also sorry for any grammatical errors. I can’t be bothered to change them, i barely have the energy to eat. I’m going to leave the forums for a while[/spoiler]
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I’m sorry you’re going through this. And I know it’s cliche as hell to say, but it’s true.. things will get better if you allow it. Time has a way of healing the heart in a way nothing else can. So take your time. Grieve, cry, get angry.. do what you need to do right now. But don’t allow yourself to fall so deep into a hole of self pity that you no longer remember how to be happy. People who do this end up passing on opportunities that could make them even happier than they were to begin with. Best of luck