I am not the best at PvP. I don’t ply it to be the best of the best. But my Ironbanner experience just was more than heartbreaking. I played 5 matches. All of them I lost and most of them I felt I couldn’t even get a footing. It got worse and worse with each match I played. It was probably fun for those that completely decimated my teams I get it. But I’ve not enjoyed crucible a single time ever since CBMM was implemented instead of SBMM. Before I lost matches as well but I at least felt I had a chance. I played against people that were about my skillevel maybe sometimes slightly higher and it felt challenging enough for me that I stuck with it and learned and got better. This now? It makes me want to turn my back and never go back into crucible again. And it makes me sad. And yes I have tried freelance IB last season but it was just horrible as I felt I was playing against Trials big leagues all the time. I just feel completely left alone and helpless in this game mode Edit: I went in fully aware of my power deficit. I’ve played with power deficit before and it wasn’t the problem. I know I will lose gunfights because of it. That is not the problem I have. I can see by movement how much better certain players are than me or simply being downed by people with adept weapons or people that have the flawless guilded title. I never achieved flawless hence it is more than likely that those players are at a higher skill level than me. Being put against high skill players constantly is far from fun. And also I don’t enjoy being in a match where someone carries the whole team with 40 kills, the match ends and the rest barely got the chance to kill anyone. Those unbalanced skill matches are horrible for me.