Don't beat yrselves up too bad, it's all bulsht anyways. Overrated and unnecessary and unhealthy. At least in the modern, 'merican (western in-general though) public/religious 'schooling'. Compulsory education in this country the past however-many-years has RUINED generations of people and it's sickening. This is not a left-right thing btw, it's an objective-take on the systems at-play in-general. Read more G e r a l d G r a f f and J o h n T a y l o r G a t t o (D a v i d R o d r i g u e z) and look up videos/shows about such on YT and podcast networks. Same goes with R o n P a u l 's homeschooling curriculum and 'peaceful parenting' and radical 'un'-schooling by people like D a y n a M a r t i n. Find a trade school of one's preferred craft private Montesorri school. Read 'C o m p a s s i o n a t e C a p i t a l i s m' and the credo at the end of it too. '1 2 R u l e s f o r L i f e' is good too. Find what one wants to do in this short, crazy life, formulate a plan and do what makes one happy, primarily, then, perhaps, enough money to live off of/a large sum to do further things one wants to do, and helps encourage the change one wishes to see in the world, namely helping others, and how it all connects. T h e H i g h e r s i d e C h a t s podcast (it's like B e y o n d t h e D a r k n e s s only without the radio-plays) and J e s s e V e n t u r a's work and AVATAR courses and the whole A n a r c h a p u l c o crowd (shameless plug) and the s c h o o l s u c k s podcast, w o k e . a s/I n f i n i t e M a n, and T h e T o m W o o d s show are good too. If it's not encouraging the meaning of life (luv), making yr ancestors' approve, or descendants upon learning of such an action in the future, it is likely unwise to do. If it isn't making yuh happy, wealthy, or incur the change yuh wish to see in the world, drop-out, get out. This user would just want to go away, go to sleep, play games in the dark, and not read and just forget the day this user went into a trance during most of to tune-out the screwing around by a-holes, garbage agitprop psychopathic 'teachers', and just the environment around the fake news in-general and lost the will to learn and grow and to think critically due to escapism. Upon leaving such institutions, ironically, while MORE time was accumulated to mess around and play, LESS of it was used to do so, as those were forms of escapism and there was nothing to escape from, so they went away too, and this user prefers to spend time reading from bookstores and on the internet and listening to internet content while writing and comparing-and-contrasting a sht-load of various, mundane things, a myriad of subjects, just trying to figure out the world and help it and this user's self, for fun even. Of course most-everything this user wants to do isn't much-connected to such institutions, and the ones that sort of ARE, either this user doesn't have the money for isn't eligible for (anymore), or has shtty rules or isn't healthy enough to make a go at yet, should there even be an opportunity there or elsewhere. DO.NOT.GET.STUDENT.LOANS.EEEEEEEEVVVVVVVVVEEEEEEERRR! Apartment life is overrated, noisy foreigners and INFESTED, and overzealous, hypochondriac jack-booted thugs harassing everyone as the 'enemy'/'puke' for no dam good reason and most contemporaries will be pumped full of agitprop. AVOID.PROTESTOR/COUNTERPROTESTOR.GROUPS. These aren't intended for any particular ideology, it's just in-general. The bussing in of FBook-connected actors/actresses for money/fame/screw with their 'enemy' group, whatever, it's narcissism incarnate and not healthy or productive. See any incitements of violence put up by teachers or student-minions, take 'em down. That is all.