Dear Friends,
Each day I feel progressively weaker. Just goes to show money doesn't solve all of your problems, at least she won't have to worry about financials as an adult for a while(hopefully lol).
Doctors are saying it could be anywhere from 12 hours to 2 weeks from now. As I lie in this uncomfortable ass hospital bed, it just doesn't feel real, but my role here in this life has been played, and I accept that. I just know she doesn't.
She won't leave my side, she cried herself to sleep last night. I don't want her to leave, and I don't want to leave her. I'm so conflicted, I accept that it's my time to go, but I can't leave her. She needs me.
I need her...
Needless to say, this will be my last post. Thank you all for your love and support, it meant a lot.
Farewell.
-God
[spoiler]When I come to the end of my journey
And I travel my last weary mile,
Just forget if you can, that I ever frowned
And remember only the smiles.
Forget unkind words I have spoken;
Remember some good I have done,
Forget that I ever had a heartache
And remember I've had loads of fun.
Forget that I have stumbled and blundered
And sometimes fell by the way.
Remember I have fought
Some hard battles and won,
Ere the close of the day.
Then forget to grieve for my going,
I would not have you sad for a day,
But in summer just gather some flowers
And remember the place where I lay.
And come in the evening,
When the sun paints the sky in the west,
Stand for a few moments beside me,
And remember only my best.
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About god, sadly I’ve never lost anyone to cancer in my family. Even though it runs prominently in my family. Before I was born my grandmother (who is still alive) had breast cancer. She was on her deathbed and the doctors sent her home to die. She went home. And never died. And she had a family that lead to me being born. Never lose hope