Umm, this is going to be a long(-ish) story, so just bear with me.
This started last Wednesday. For the first time in years, I was able to sleep like a log. But the days after that has just been quite simply, nightmarish. The day after I got some pretty intense sleep paralysis episodes. And ever since have been nervous and scared, thus causing depression, sleep deprivation and negativity. Which is why I'm been trying to be positive, it's quickly catching up, as you can tell.
These aren't my first ones, but it adds up. The more you get, the worse your mental state becomes. So please, try not to actively chase them, you'll regret it in the end.
You [b]may[/b] (I bolded that for an obvious reason) have noticed a barrage of joke threads, well the truth is. That's how I cope with stuff like this. By making people laugh, I smile. And forget whatevers causing me grief. It helps to drown it out, is what I'm trying to say.
I may just need a brake from work, but what I can tell you guys for certain, is that I'm not feeling well.
If you don't like my joke threads, that's fine. I don't mind.
I'm so tired. Sorry to go all emo and attention w***ish, but I thought you guys should know the truth. I like you guys (no homo).
You all deserve that much...
I'll break through this, but for now, I just need to try to laugh and smile, that's all. :)
Have a nice afternoon/evening everyone!
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I've never dealt with sleep paralysis, but I've had experience with another unpleasant side effect of chronic stress. Meditation and reflection does wonders, but only if you're in the right frame of mind-- deep introspection while you feel like shit only makes things worse. Find something simple that makes you happy, and that you can do while you're trying to think. As New-Agey as it sounds, my go-tos were playing music and listening to the birds and insects outside my house. Simple, pleasant activities to keep you positive while you sort through your day-- that's the key.