Yesterday was terrible for me, as terrible a day as I could have ever imagined. Because of my autism and fear of change I had panic attacks and depressive thoughts for about an hour when travelling to a new place. Then my family forgot about even picking me up from the train station. I felt abandoned, stuck and very afraid. I felt like jumping on the tracks. I didn't do it. My day got marginally better but I could not forgive being forgotten about. I stayed up until 3am and went to The Farm and I had so much fun. I ran around, jumped, danced and climbed around like an idiot. I explored every nook and cranny and probably made it to every death zone and felt comforted to find isolated areas overlooking the seas where my Guardian could just stare out into oblivion. I played soccer atrociously. Could have done something with it being 3am, but to be honest I had as much coordination as I have in real life. And a player and I took screen shots of each other and sent them to one another and wished each other a Happy Destiny 2 Day. Just that little bit of friendliness made all the difference to my mood. It made me remember why I keep coming back to this game and how much it has changed my life. Playing Destiny 1 has already helped me gain social skills and work better in a team, which is something I can take with me into the real world. I was able to overcome paralyzing social anxiety about playing multiplayer. It's a game that has continuously challenged me - I was a below average gamer before playing Destiny but I never gave up on completing missions in Destiny 1 that seemed impossible to beat and I feel stronger for it. Some of those challenges I still haven't been able to overcome, like raiding. Raiding you see just reminds me of my sub par social skills and the hopelessness of ever overcoming them. I also don't have the best patience for conflicting personalities. But I've still not given up in acquiring those skills to turn me into a weekly raider. Some members of the community are already starting to show understanding and patience with autistic players and a couple of people are willing to help me out and I am so grateful for that. People are often saying negative things to Bungie, some of it is deserved but sometimes I think people just complain because they're used to it. Bungie could turn Destiny into one of the most entertaining and successful games and give the fans everything they've asked for and I still think people will nitpick at it. I firmly believe they intended to make Destiny more about solid gameplay mechanics than a deep cinematic campaign and then they found out that hardly anyone wanted that, or rather they wanted both because story is still very important to many of us, and they've gone to great lengths to fix their mistakes. I think in Destiny 2 we'll see those changes we've asked for. I'm already getting a feel from that in the beta. There was a time when I wanted to give up on Destiny. After I found out how Joe Staten was treated. As a writer myself it felt like a betrayal to all writers, but I stayed. I did leave after Rise of Iron after I got bored but I missed it. I never wanted to give up on a game that had helped me so much. So Bungie I just wanted to say thank you. You have no idea how much Destiny has changed my life and is continually helping me manage my depression. No game or even mental health professional, or autism specialist has ever achieved what Destiny 1 achieved in my first 3 months of playing. I don't know how I will cope when the beta goes and I'll have to wait another 5 or 6 weeks for the full game to come out. I might just return to Destiny 1. I still haven't played it on PS4. I'll see you all in Destiny 2. I really want to go back to The Farm. It has made me remember that life really has some enjoyable moments, despite the stress, the struggle, the hopelessness, the dismissive friends and doctors, the clueless family members who refuse to educate themselves about my issues and all my disabilities, illnesses and physical ailments that just make me want to give up. And yes I will buy DLC, micro transactions and all the collectible crap. I've put $1000s of dollars into Destiny already and I don't mind because IT MAKES ME HAPPY. Yes I'm a sucker for the cash cow. Better to be a sucker than wallowing in depression. I'm not sure how this post will be received as it's a rare show of gratitude towards Bungie and contains some deeply personal information but if you choose to belittle and demean a person who almost offed themselves yesterday then that's on you. I have no plans to respond to people like that. I just felt I needed to say this and show my support to Bungie.