It's... It's okay... He was always getting in trouble. And I'm used to loss... About a year after he left my parents died in a car crash, and my sister, who was seventeen when they died took up alcoholism and you could rarely see her without a beer or wine in her hand. She must have gotten it from me, I was a wreck. Had rehab for months. She drowned in a tub a month later. That was a wake up call to get my life together.