I'm filled with guilt and shame for something I've done...and I don't think I can take another day of it.
I destroyed my relationship with the girl I would die for...I hurt her...and twisted her love into hate.
I also don't know what else I'm going to do with my life, I have no future...I haven't even graduated high school and I should have last year...I dropped out.
I don't have any money, I can't get a job because of not graduating.
I'm full of shame for what I've done...and I can't live with myself, I turned the greatest thing I had into nothing but hate and remorse.
I don't know if I can do it...but I'm contemplating it.
Edit: Thanks for all of you who tried to help, I made a promise to my grandfather when he passed to go to college and get through high school.
I'm not killing myself, I was just...on the edge and I felt devastated by what I'd lost.
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Give into your anger and join the dark side. Once more the sith will rule the Galaxy! [spoiler]im not help and I know it ._.[/spoiler]
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Go back to school, graduate, get a job, get money, forget girl cause nothing else can be done, improve yourself and don't make the same mistakes.
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You can turn it around
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Even though everyone thinks their a special snowflake, their lives matter. Suicide won't fix anything. It will just stop your existence. You won't feel anything. Don't do it. Trust me.
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Forget the distractions, get back on track, and better people will gravitate toward you. Then you find someone to start your empire with. It seems significant now, but every girl who ripped my heart out is barely a vague memory now. They just helped me learn how to have better relationships down the road. Time heals all wounds, and for all you know, the only parts of your life you've seen yet could be the worst of it.
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Killing yourself won't solve anything
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This pity fest is nauseating.
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Seek counseling if you're being serious. Otherwise get back into school. Sounds like you're still young. Try to patch things up with the girl if you want. If it works... great, if not there'll be another. I lost "the girl of my dreams " around the age of 20. I'm 35 now and married with kids. I still chuckle at how devastated I was at the time. Get yourself together first. School then job then worry about a girl and all that other crap.
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One day you'll turn that fire you feel into fuel. Your life will run on rails as you find new happiness in life. Purpose will become your passion. Trust me friend, I've been there.
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Do it. If you're that spineless, do it.
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You still got a future no matter how bad it looks, you still have a chance, just keep going man, it can get better, but you have to try
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There's so much you haven't got to experience in life, and you have the potential to live a long and fulfilling life. Get your GED or a high school diploma, get a job and/or go to a trade school and learn a valuable skill, and make something of yourself. You're young, and you have yet to see all the fun and laughs life has to offer. Don't let a couple of mistakes keep you from moving forward and being somebody.
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Just do it. -Nike