Both of the friends I play with regularly have Hawkmoon. One had had at least 4. I just don't care that much. I have Fatebringer ascended, same with WoC and VoC. I'd rather have elemental primary damage than Hawkmoon for pve anyway. Will I buy it when Xur inevitably sells it, assuming I still don't have one? Sure. Mostly because I would like to get all of the exotics. But it's not going to ruin my day if it doesn't drop. That's what I'm trying to impress upon you. Let it go, breathe. You'll be happier in the long run.