I feel the same way you do. From the moment I saw Hawkmoon it was the only exotic that really appealed to me because it reminds me of a Desert Eagle. 50 Cal handgun. Putting in countless hours to the game and not being rewarded with this gun is lame. I am quickly losing interest in the game. RNG reward system is a bust. If I don't receive the Hawkmoon soon I am retiring from Destiny. The grind isn't worth it when your consistently getting shafted.