Do you know what it feels like to be in hell, lad? A metaphorical hell, of course, but painful nonetheless. I live this hell every day, and while it's not always sad moments, there's certainly enough of it to break a man So there's this lass, see, and she means the world to me, I even helped convince her not to convince suicide once, I've been her sort o' guardian, you see. And I was really the only one who listened, she's put up with a little hell of her own, and there was a time where we were closer than anyone could be... But alas, that all went down the drain, there's distance between us, metaphorically and literally, we live quite a ways apart. And over time she's just seemed to become... Distant And I endure this pain, this torture, daily, and it's gotten to the point where I've realized I have no chance with her (least not right now) but the fire still burns in me, letting go is the hardest part, isn't it? Yet I fear she may not even consider me a friend soon, we argue occasionally, over stupid things really. And her and I both tire of the arguments, I just want peace, which her solution to it is to just drop the subject, ignore it, I prefer to talk it out, you know, make amends. It's not going well, yet, despite all this pain, It still brings a smile to my face and warmth to my heart with every moment we spend together. And every happy moment I have with her is a blessing, just lately there haven't been very many happy moments