I kinda realized I forgot to update it.
Original thread: [url]http://www.bungie.net/en/Forum/Post/69652083/0/0[/url]
So things got a bit worse before they got better. She started to ignore me completely, and trying to apologize for the way I had acted lately just pissed her off. But after about a week, things took a complete 180. We started flirting again out of the blue. the day we started talking again, she could hardly stay away from me at school. We flirted constantly that day, and whenever she got the chance to, she was holding my hand. Almost as if we were dating. Thing was, we obviously weren't. For a good week, I didn't even know if we were still friends. Things just went back to normal abruptly. It felt a bit unnatural.
Still, I'd rather no try to figure out why. I'm just leaving it at we're leaving the past in the past and we (as in me) learned the value of taking things slow. We've even talked about the idea of actually getting together. She's not sure about it. The first time things started getting serious between us, it didn't go down so well. Beside that, she also doesn't want to risk ruining a friendship that apparently means a lot to her. According to her, I'm one of the best friends she's ever had and the only one she can really confide her feelings in. She doesn't know what she'd do if she lost me. But me on the other hand, I think it was mostly in the timing all of it happened. She was in the middle of a breakup, and a messy one at that, to a guy that not only I knew, but also one I had called a friend. Of course now, we can't stand each other. I hate him for the way he treated her in the last days of their relationship and the horrible way he dumped her, and he is accusing her of cheating with me (and hates me for it), which leads me to believe he's just petty and jealous.
Getting back to the point, I also don't want either of us to think one day and wonder what could have been. There's a good chance we may never see each other again after we graduate, and if we don't, I don't want to add any more regrets to an already long enough list. If as a couple, we're not meant to be, I want to know. Because who knows? Maybe we are. We've both confessed love for each other. Neither of us can deny our feelings anymore. For all we know, we might last a month, or we get married one day. And of course anything in between. Or maybe we're both overreacting to our first true love and this is all gone in months. I don't know, but I'm done waiting on it. I want to find out. I'm thinking of finally manning up and asking her out, something neither of us have been brave enough to do in the past three years. Should I do it, guys, and if I should, when?
TL;DR: If you cared enough to click, READ THE GODDAMN THING.
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