[spoiler][b]TL;DR[/b]: I feel as though I'll be miserable before I ever do anything, even when it's something I greatly enjoy. Why might this be?[/spoiler]
The idea of having to do anything really kills me. Like, I just know whatever it is will make me miserable. At least, that's how I feel. Realistically, I'm fully aware that, in most cases, I'm actually quite content while doing any sort of work and even feel good while doing it, and especially after doing it. It can even be something I know I'll absolutely love, and I still assume I'll be miserable.
For example, if my friends call me and ask if I want to go out and do something, I immediately feel as if an annoying responsibility has been dropped on my shoulders. Like a very religious grandma who would love for you to go to church with her one weekend, and you agree because you love her and want to make her happy. But that makes no sense, because I know how I am and I know that I'll enjoy every second I'm out with my friends. And yet, even still, I dread even the thought of it.
This applies to every area of my life, and every action I take. I love the way my body feels while working out, and yet I'm so hesitant to start every single time. I love going out to eat with family, and yet I want to say no every time they ask me. I love taking showers because they feel amazing, and yet I have to force myself to take one each time.
So my question is, why might this be? Does anyone share this problem? And advice? Many people say it's just laziness, but I think there's more to it than that.
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You're just feeling melancholy. You should probably try perhaps going outside and doing something physical, or do something that'll make you happy. [spoiler]I know what I just said is kind of bland and vauge, but just give it a shot.[/spoiler]