So this is my story: I really wanted to get at least one HM completion. I Spent all my weekend, swimming in the cespit of toxicity and rage called LFG with no avail. I dont think I'm a bad player ( I'm no mlg pro either and never will be) , i can pull my own weight and i love listening to the advice of other ppl. Unfortunatly all i heard this weekend was " he has no emblem - kick him" or " have you killed oryx? No? I'm not interested in having you in our team" ( just for the record - i was 313 during my adventures). I started to lose my sanity and gave up on the HM. Today ( as an destiny addict i am) i had to try again. A simple lfg post " looking for one 308+ more" i msged the guy and got invited into the raid at about 10 am. Nedless to say - we wiped, ALOT. But something told me to stay. The leader always explained everything and our bubble bro said something that i will remember for a long time - " if someone sees that i can improve in any way, please speak up, i strive to get better and better". We changed the strat a few times ( we used the 2 titans on the platform strat) and began to get oryx lower and lower. Soon he was down to 10% and... We wiped. The disappointment was boiling up inside me but no one had blamed another, which kept me going . It was 1:20 pm, i said to my team " ok gents, unfortunately this will be my last attempt - i have to go to work at 1:40", the leader replied " no worries - we will get him this time". If i have to be honest - i didn't belive that. I decided to go a bit yolo - i dropped the TOM I've been using during the entire encounter not telling my teammates, infused my sleeper with an 316 rocket launcher and equipped it. The ogres MELTED - the team was on spot, and finally we got oryx down at that last attempt. Thanks to the power of Determination and great Teammates i cleared my first HM. Im glad that still, in the lfg abyss of pure hate - you can find gems that shine like the brightest stars. Never lose hope Guardians!