I'm confused, are you serious? If you are, you my have a body dis morphia issue, it's a serious and horrible condition, but there are ways to beat it. Also with your symptoms you could have extreme social anxiety, followed by possible depression, the feelings of always being judged and never being good enough, that could cause you to feel like that. I hope you aren't trolling cause that's rude to all the people who do feel that way, and if your not trolling and want to talk, I got experience with this. So write back or pm, I'll listen.